I can see a "progression" into peace in my experience. I can see the entirety of my life in gratitude. All the pain and misery served a purpose. Every step, every moment brings me here, now. Intellectually you know we only experience the now. We do not experience the past or the future, but sometimes we can see the entire life experience as a whole and that extends in front of and behind the present, in one moment. I write but who is writing? What directs me now? My brain/mind is functioning but it is somewhat automatic, without effort. What comes next, it just flows. It may be meaningless and that is fine.